Love?

How do you know you're in love? Seriously.

It'd be so much easier for both parties if ye just knew, wouldn't it? There would less heartache & even less time wasted. You wouldn't lead anyone to believe you were in love with them only to realise you aren't months later. I'm afraid that I'm doing this to DA... I'm sure this what I did to my last boyfriend & I really hope it's not happening again.
However, the words "I love you" are often on the tip of my tongue & I've even said it once by accident... I'm not even sure I'm in love with him, so why say it? Sometimes I feel so very positive about my feelings, but I often don't as well. I don't want to hurt him or lead him on, but I don't want to lose him either...

Am I being selfish? I really wish I could understand how I feel. Why must love be such a complicated & difficult feeling to understand?

World Preventing Suicide Day!

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Emotionless

I feel like a brick wall. Hard. Cold. Unmoving.
I don't know what to do or what to think...
I've hurt someone that loves me, but I don't want their love. Yet, I did care for them greatly once before. However, not in the same way they seem to care about me. Friendship & support was all I thought we had, they wanted more. Thought we could have more.

But I've turned into a brick wall. Hard. Cold. Unmoving. I have no emotion for this person... Only anger, but I don't even know why.

He says he thinks about me all the time. He cries for me, but we have never met in person. I don't understand it. I can make friends over the Internet - Good friends - but, for anything stronger, I think you should know the person in real life, not just on a screen.

These last few months I've become cruel. I don't know when it started. I don't really know why. Maybe I do... But it's all too complicated. All I know is that I don't love him the way he wants to be loved. I don't know if I even want to be friends. He's cut off all contact now, because I was a bitch earlier today & just sent me a message before deleting me completely on another app that we met on. He explained his feelings & how he almost killed himself last month... I understand his life isn't the best, that things aren't always going his way at all, but I'm not worth killing himself over. Not at all!
We've only skyped a handful of times, dammit!

I don't know... I'm more angered than anything else... I don't want to be forced to be his friend - i dont want his friendship any more - but I don't want to leave him there, in the cold, either.

I feel like an emotionless freak.... A brick wall.

Bands & Singers I Love...!

Aerosmith
Bon Jovi
AC/DC
Snow Patrol

The Coronas
The Script
Foo Fighters
30 Seconds To Mars
Florence  & The Machine
Marina & The Diamonds

Michael Bublé
Example
Imelda May

There is possibly more to this list, but I can't think of them right now... I'll update it as I go along!
Anyway, check them out! I highly recommend each of them.

My Boyfriend! :D

Well, now that my heads cleared, I went to my boyfriend's house today! I hadn't seen him in over two weeks, so it was really good to see him... I start getting negative thoughts when we're apart for too long... :/
We talked for a good while, before having some fun! Hehehehehehehehe! ;) XD
Then we talked a good bit again. Dad was late coming to collect me, so my boyfriend's mam asked if I wanted to stay for dinner. I did, so rang mam to ask if it was okay, but, of course, that was when the doorbell rang. Dad had arrived.
I had a good day overall with him, though. We just lay together, not talking, on his bed, for a while. It was relaxing & comforting. I had trouble not falling asleep!

I love him... <3