Contemplating...

At this very moment, I'm laying in bed, contemplating whether I should actually go to school or not. I'm just so damn exhausted!
Even after going to bed earlier than normal, I've slept less than I have in weeks. At 1am, I woke up with the most horrible stomach cramp ever! Ugh! :/ I ended up having to get a hot water bottle & unable to sleep for at least an hour & a half afterwards.
This is a FML moment for sure! >.<

School Tomorrow...

Honestly, I don't really want to go back. I'd prefer to stay here, at home helping Mam, just like I have for most of the summer. All I want to do at school tomorrow is to see my friends & then go home. I don't even want to see my timetable, because I already know I can't do one of the subject I wanted to do. I also know, because of that, I'll have to do some subject that I'll hate. I have a strong feeling it'll be Geography, possibly Chemistry.
   The only things I'm looking forward to this year are going to school with my younger brother & sister again & doing Art, which it looks like I'll still be able to do this year. Otherwise, it's going to be a shit load of work, study & stress. All preparation for next school year.
   I can guarantee you that my year head & principal will both be like "The Leaving Cert starts now. Not next year," during the assembly. Then go on to talk about studying & the likes. I more than likely hear that over & over again in almost all my classes, just to make sure we heard it the first 2 times!
   I also don't want to see any of those damn eejits, that I blissfully avoided basically all summer!
   Ugh...
   I just really don't want to go... But I've to suck it up, right? I've no choice, in all honesty. Not if I want to do Visual Communications or anything like that. If there was only a way... >_<

Well, I should seriously get to sleep now.

I'm going to be exhausted in the morning!

Blah...

Goodnight <3

Going To Bed! (Excuse My Vulgar Language)

Heading to bed now in a second, but I'm bloody pissed off with myself. I had a good enough day. I spent majority of it with my boyfriend! <3 However, because we went on a walk, any mails I got on facebook, didn't show up on my iPod, with notifications, as I didn't have wifi. Because of this, I missed the skype call with my best friend, IM. This sucks major balls. I had meant to check my mails earlier, but I got distracted. Ugh. My fault! -_-
Tomorrow. I'll hopefully Skype her then. It'll be good to chat to her before I go to the Gaeltacht! Even if it's for 10 - 15 minutes (as if we could ever keep our conversations that short. Ha!).
I plan to chat with all the girls this week, but I got to watch my mail now and my timing. Blah. I was looking forward to talking to her. Tomorrow is another day.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow.

Chat, chat, chat.

Laying in bed...

Just finished watching The Avengers! I didn't really get to watch it all with my little sister like I planned. I had to do some ironing for Mam, so I gave my laptop to my sister to watch the streamed film, while ironed. However, it stopped playing after 2 mins 29 secs -_- So I found a different video stream  & let that load up a bit & I went back to my ironing. Then I burnt my freakin' elbow!!! -_-" Only I could manage that. Seriously.
Anyway, after all that, me & my sister watched the beginning together before she had to go to bed & I watched the rest. I'm going to give her my laptop to watch the rest tomorrow or whenever. :)

Random thought... I wonder is my friend really A-okay... I really hope she tells me whats wrong next time, instead of just blogging it... She says she's a problem communicating her problems, which I can understand, but something bugs me about it all... I don't know... I hope this ain't the beginning of a series of unfortunate events & knowing my luck, it may be... Hopefully, I can see her again this year & we can talk more in person rather than over Skype. At least we talked this morning too. I had never felt so horrible in my life until last night. I could actually understand why people have suicidal thoughts, though I could never do it to my family and friends, of course, but I had very bad thoughts, thinking she may not want me any more... Blah... I really love her... I hope I never have to feel that way again. I don't think I could survive without our friendship.
I'm just going to have to try to talk to her more. She's going to have to learn to reply to all my messages though!

Anyway, I better sleep now! I have to get up to serve breakfast in 6hrs! :O
Oh & my brother  is playing in the finals tomorrow, like I mentioned. My dad & sister are going to go up and watch & I'll stay home and help mam.

Goodnight! <3