Easter Holidays, aka Two Weeks of Freedom!

Thank God! I'm just so tired & sick of school at this point. This is one well needed break. School is way too stressful & often with an unwelcoming atmosphere as of late - not fun!
So, for the next two weeks I plan to relax & to help mam about the place. Maybe DA & I'll meet up with A & her boyfriend for a double date thingy... That'll be good craic! I've also to do some job hunting for summer. Lots of it, I'm sure. So, I better start printing CVs!
I'm also going to be doing an art portfolio course the first week of April. It's to help kickstart organising myself to apply to colleges & ITs. It'll be nerve wracking & intimidating - there'll be students aiming for art college & who're just naturally gifted. Compared to be like that, I'm rubbish, but I've to do this for myself, so no backing down! Plus four full days of art? That HAS to be fun!

Now, I'm off to eat breakfast & organise myself for the day!

Finally!

Finally an evening that's basically my own! I could actually take my time on my homework & not rush, hoping to finish everything. Nope! Today, I took my time & still had time to read a bit, before having a nice long shower.
It felt so good just to take my time. I was able to be easily distracted by images of detailed paintings of fairies & not have to worry will I have enough time to do maths homework or the likes.
Hopefully I'll have more evenings like this. I'll get seriously stressed out otherwise, if I don't! I become such a bitch when I'm stressed out. I'm hardly ever nice without strain when I'm under pressure. I almost lost a friend last school year due to stress! That is -not- happening again this year, if I can get my way.
Well, I think I'm going to go to sleep early tonight. I know for a fact I'm going to have a ton of homework tomorrow, all due the following day... There is like zero leeway on my timetable for that sort of stuff! >.< It's a bit annoying! Anyway, I'm going to head to bed now. :)

Goodnight <3

ANGER!!!

I don't want to clean rooms any more or serve people's breakfast. I want to stay up late and not give a shit. I want to sleep in as late as I want. I don't want to go around having to correct the girl that comes to help out in the B&B on the exact same things, almost everyday! I want to breath. I do'nt want fucking retards at school using me to take out their anger.

Just because the principal gave out another fucking EXAMPLE timetable after I talked to him, does not fucking mean it's my fault. I'm ONE goddamn student out of SEVENTY-FIVE!!!! Why the fuck would he change it for me you stupid retards! I didn't even ask him to change it. He even said that it wasn't the final thing.

That time ye decided it would be funny to spread it around that I was pregnant? Shout it out in class so the teachers could hear? Yeah, fucking hilarious. Go play with yourselves, you'll find that ye ain't so fun

Oh, & you know that sixth year that was drinking in school & stealing things from the classrooms, on his last day of school? Did he deserve to get in trouble? Hell yes! But was I the one that told on him, or did ye all just assume, as ye all do & spread it around the school that I did? Yeah, thought so.

I'm so fucking glad it's summer. Finally away from the likes of you bastards.

You can't call me names or push around. Judge me for what I look like, or dream to do. I can breath more, be myself more. I hope, some day, each and every one of you can feel what I've felt. You won't be so quick to go after me then, eh?

 

Maybe this is what happened to me? All this stupid retarded stress?!

Fuck all this!

Just let me breath again...