Like, okay, there's moments I feel sort of crappy, or I just really miss all my friends and I want to do nothing but talk to them. Be with them. But I get over those moments easy enough and I'm fine again. Well, half-cracked, but that's totally normal in my case. It wouldn't be any fun if I was anything but!
I don't even have as much problem working either. Yes, I get a bit annoyed doing everything for mam, and I might mess on the iPod a bit, but I'm still doing my work more and I don't complain as much as I normally would. Actually, overall this season in the B&B, I have been basically just doing the work! I hope whatever has made me do this doesn't go away. I quite like the way I'm working. Hopefully it'll rub off onto my studying skills come the end of August! :P
I'm trying to get along with Dad better too. I like it when we're not annoyed at one another. We're so much alike, however, which makes it so easy to be annoyed. But I love him and I know he loves me, so it makes me happy that we're not at each other as much lately! :)
I don't even really feel depressed or down really any more either! Maybe just the odd time I'll get that empty feeling when I think of IM & my other close friends, D, J & R, and how I miss them, but I then just try to message one of them and it usually helps shake the loneliness off. I think I'll try and meet D soon, if the weather clears up. She lives the closest to me of all my friends, so we'll maybe just meet up and walk around our area and just talk. It might help the empty feeling to become even less again. :) I may not feel like I can tell D everything, sometimes, but I think I'm going to try and do that now. Bottling things up like I do doesn't really help and I can't just wait to Skype or meet IM in person any more. It gets too much for me, so I get depressed and stuff. So I'll have to learn to trust D more. It's hard to know what she thinks though, at times. Whatever. I need to stop worrying what people think of me anyway. I can just ask her if I really want to know. I need to relax more - that's probably why I'm happy more too. I'm more relaxed than I would be at school! I'm going to try keep it that way :)
Anyway, here's the first photo of me I've posted on my blog :)
The lighting and whatever is a bit iffy - it's my webcam and I've only my lamp on.
I'm ready for bed though in my lovely Transition Year hoodie! Haha! :P
Well, Goodnight all! Sleep well :) <3
