School is starting again next week & to be honest I'm not entirely excited about going back.
A lot of people used to be so nice in my school, but I've found that, over the years, many have turned into horrible assholes & bullies.
I've always managed to be picked on from a young age. Sometimes I feel as if there's a florescent sign above my head flashing "Pick On Me!" Once I staarted secondary school, though, I did gain a bit of confidence, but in last year or two, I'd say, things have gotten worse again. I can't say anything some days without some idiot trying to make a smart comment. Often it's easy to laugh it off, but others, I just want to tell them to shut the fuck up!
There have been times I've been hit & kicked by another girl, so I had to learn to hit back. D got me interested in rugby. One day, this same girl wanted to know how to rugby tackle. D told me to show her, so I tackled her to the ground in the middle Biology Lab at lunch. One of the best moments of my life! She tends to be quite nice to me now.
However, not everything is as easy as rugby tackling the bully. You just have to learn to take the shit. Stand your ground. I've had to do this some many times over the years. I usen't to be able. I would start to cry & get upset. I still do, but now I can hold it in better & tell the asshole where to go; how untrue what they say is.
Sometimes, it's not always easy, but I have, as well as you do, the right to be me. To try to live my life as me. I shouldn't need to change myself completely to get someone to stop picking on me.
So, schools starting again next week & I can't wait to see all my friends & all the teachers I love.
I don't give a crap about what they say tome or what they think! I shouldn't & neither should you!
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