Stand Up For Who You Are!
If someone tries to bring you down, hold your head higher & smile
People get picked on & bullied for many different things. It could be something as simple as the clothes you wear or your style of hair, to the colour of your skin or the person you choose to love, whether it be a man or a woman.
I'm one of those people. However, I just think I have a flashing neon sign above my head saying "Pick On Me!" as I've no idea why people choose to bully me. I'm just trying to be myself! And that's just it! No matter what you do, how many times you colour your hair, or change your clothing style, some people will just walk right over you.
So, what do we do?
We have to learn to stand up for ourselves, because it's our right to have the freedom to live as we are. We shouldn't have to change ourselves in any sort of way, except to gain a bit of confidence & build on our self esteem.
My blog is about how I try to be me, trying to be the best I can be!
I promise you this is not a super depressing blog, because I sure as hell ain't a depressed person, though, I do have my moments, just as everyone else does.
This is where I will be 100% myself, expressing my thoughts & feelings on different matters & also my daily life.
What I hope to do here on this blog, is to put a smile on your face &, hopefully, let you know it's okay to be yourself; to be proud of who you are!
If you do read my blog & you find that you find what I say has some truth to it, or my wackiness & randomness of my true self puts a good smile on your face, please don't hesitate to comment & let me know! Putting a smile on someone's face is always the best thing! It'd make my day! :)
Well, I hope you enjoy my blog... Have a good day! :)
Monday, 24 September 2012
Job Offer! :D
I'm so freakin' happy! I had originally hoped for a summer job & had given up once school had started. However, I swear someone is looking out for me up there. The popular cafe in town had notices put up around the school for a "weekend job, suitable for students 16 & over". My friends & I ripped down all the notices, so no one else would even dare to ask for the job, if others already had. We weren't exactly playing fair, but it's too late now! Haha! XD
I had gone in last Wednesday, before rugby training, & handed in my CV, trying to not act all weird - sort of hard since "weird" comes au natural to me! I must have succeeded though as I just received an email from one of the owners. She wants to know would I be interested in working, starting around the mid-term break in October... WOO!!!!
The only problem I have now is whether I'll be here at home or not, then. My parents plan to go up to see my extended family, up where they're from. I sort of want to go too...
Scrap all that! Dad just came into my room. He said we won't be going up if I want to work... I feel sort of guilty that they're going to change the family plans just for me. We haven't seen any of my nannies, aunties, uncles or cousins in months! I'm happy at the same time too, though. Hopefully I won't work the bank holiday weekend & we can still visit my family.
We'll see how things work out, but, firstly, I'll have email the cafe to say I'd feckin' love to work for them!!!
Well, in a more mannerly way, of course! :P haha!
I just hope now that I can keep up with the pressure of school on top of the job... I'll find out, I guess!
Anyway, goodnight! <3
Friday, 21 September 2012
Thursday, 13 September 2012
Wednesday, 12 September 2012
Update On My Boyfriend & I
We talked things out & he's trying to work harder. He knows he needs extra help with English soon & I know I need to learn to breathe & relax too!
So, the basic gist of things is that everything is alright again. Things have been going well the last few days & will hopefully continue that way!
Just letting ye know! :)
Gathering Support Group Info!
So far, I've only really managed to find one that I like so far (I'm trying them out myself before I put then up,). It's hard to find time to check them all.
However, if you know any support groups/websites for bullying or even for anyone BGLT or whatever, that would be great! Especially as it wouldn't feel right for me to bust into their support groups, since I don't happen to fall into the BGLT category. It'd be sort of intruding on people that do, I feel, especially in a support group or site... Okay, I'm rambling, sorry!
The basic gist of things are that I'm hoping that anyone that knows ANY good support websites or group for ANYthing, please comment on this post! I've a good insight for bullying groups, as I've been bullied myself. Otherwise, I'd appreciate the help from you, as I wouldn't know what would be good for people in situations I've never been in myself. Y'know?
So, comment below to help! Thank yoooooooou! :)
Random Sheep O.e
We've no idea how he managed to get into it, as there's no openings at all, except the gate to the house, but we've a cattle guard, so he wouldn't have made it across. It's so random!
Monday, 10 September 2012
World Preventing Suicide Day!
Pissed Off Rant At My Boyfriend!!!
He wanted to get extra help with English, which I thought was great, so he asked the career guidance teacher. She was the worst person to ask. She told him that the teachers were basically too busy to help him (he doesn't learn Irish, by the way, so he has spare classes where he could learn English). This excuse was crazy in my opinion, as he received extra help before, but the teacher forgot a couple of times & just stopped the lessons. I told my boyfriend to ask our year head for the extra classes. He forgot to & isn't bothered, it seems.he says that it'll be alright.
It so totally won't be - excuse my language - fucking alright if I've to explain simple words like "statement" where, in the context of the sentence, have very obvious meaning ("Do you agree with the above statement?").
Then, after that, explain how to answer the question. This is even more insanely annoying as our teacher had explained what to do in class. We had also been working on this topic since we started back at school!
This is just so stupid. He knows, or should, at least, know about it all after two weeks. It is far from rocket science & I swear he had a brain last time I checked. It's like he just doesn't listen in class. I'm the one that absolutely hates the class & teacher, but I still listen & try my best!
I want to do well & get the points I need from the end exam from this subject. He'll need points too, as he won't be able to do honours level (you get more points if you do this level) for a few subjects due to the fact that he hasn't the best of English. However, it's as if he doesn't try; he doesn't want to do well.
It pisses me off so much, because that's all I ever do - try! I want to do the best I can; I want my education to help me get somewhere in life. Then, he just doesn't care.
I spent a good bit of time explaining the one question we had in Geography to him today, while I could've been doing my own homework & study. I repeated the same basic thing over & over again, explaining what to do & then he would repeatedly ask the same question about something I had explained.
I wanted to scream at him - that's how pissed off I got. I know I've a short temper, at times, but he always pushes me over the edge with this sort of stuff. I swear to God, he is going to get extra English classes, even if I have to organise them myself. I don't care if he doesn't want the classes anymore, I won't be able to stand much more of this. He needs them & I'm not patient enough to go through everything with him, nor do I want to lose time on what could be spent on study, to help myself.
Yes, I know I sound selfish, but to be honest, I tell him he should do certain things to help himself at school & he rarely ever listens. He's incredible intelligent at maths, however he is in ordinary level maths. He could do honours level easily. I do it myself! I told him & he said no, because he would have to study more for the subject... You get 25 extra bonus points if you just simply pass honours maths! That means by getting a D3 in Honours level is more or the same as an A1 in ordinary. Like, what the hell? A bit of study is no harm! It'll be good in the long run.
Ugh! He has zero motivation! It pisses me off so bloody much!!!
Sunday, 9 September 2012
Phew...!
Thursday, 6 September 2012
Feeling Good!!! :D
However, my day was pretty good apart from the homework. Little bits of the day just made me smile. For instances, in maths, I was one of only three people to get a maths question right! I felt so cocky! Haha! XD Yesterday, I was the only one to have 4 particular questions done. I was pretty happy with myself then too as Ms. K was totally pissed with the rest of the class as she had "pre marked those questions" & assumed everyone would have done them for some unknown reason! I'd just had them done by chance! LOL! Anyway, it's made my last two days in that class. I've had little moments like that throughout today.
Tomorrow is Friday. I can't wait! I'll actually get time to turn my laptop on,, for a change. I've been using the blogspot app on my iPod the last few days. It's alright, it gets the basic job done, but I miss my italic & bold lettering, along with being able to change the alignment of the text... Plus I can't choose where the photos go in the post using the app either. They just automatically go to the end. So, basically, I miss using my laptop! :)
Anyway, I'm off to bed now! Talk to you soon.
Goodnight <3
Contemplating...
Even after going to bed earlier than normal, I've slept less than I have in weeks. At 1am, I woke up with the most horrible stomach cramp ever! Ugh! :/ I ended up having to get a hot water bottle & unable to sleep for at least an hour & a half afterwards.
This is a FML moment for sure! >.<
Wednesday, 5 September 2012
Finally!
It felt so good just to take my time. I was able to be easily distracted by images of detailed paintings of fairies & not have to worry will I have enough time to do maths homework or the likes.
Hopefully I'll have more evenings like this. I'll get seriously stressed out otherwise, if I don't! I become such a bitch when I'm stressed out. I'm hardly ever nice without strain when I'm under pressure. I almost lost a friend last school year due to stress! That is -not- happening again this year, if I can get my way.
Well, I think I'm going to go to sleep early tonight. I know for a fact I'm going to have a ton of homework tomorrow, all due the following day... There is like zero leeway on my timetable for that sort of stuff! >.< It's a bit annoying! Anyway, I'm going to head to bed now. :)
Goodnight <3
Woo!
Well, sorta! I managed to finish majority of it in a free class & a study class today. I've just to finish Geography, do some French, study a bit & then work on my art project! Not too bad all considering. I should have time later for a proper post. :)
Tuesday, 4 September 2012
Ugh! :/
I hate fucking Geography.
Actually, to be honest, I've found I rather like the subject, just despise the teacher! Who the hell gives 9 pages of a workbook to be done for the following day? Then not even correct them?! Ugh! :/ this is going to be a long hard year... I hate it already :/